Waking up from a good dream with my heart pounding and having butterflies in my chest is supposed to be exciting… except that I wasn’t dreaming about my boyfriend… whyyyyy?? These adorable sophomore boys are god damn killing me.
that moment when you seriously can’t stand to be around people anymore. GROW THE FLYING FUCK UP ALREADY. GOD DAMN. college>high school. who knew we would be so disrespected and ignored?
end of rant.
When you realize your guy friends make you feel better than your boyfriend… ugh.
what sucks is when
my mom tells me teachers she is afraid i will make the same “mistakes” that she did by marrying young and having children young. what does that mean? i really hope that i’m not like her later in life. she seems to regret a lot about her life. it’s really frustrating to be around but i feel kind of bad.
MY MOM IS GOING TO DRIVE ME INSANE.
the end.
Get Ready for a Rant.
I’m pretty sure nobody actually reads these, as hardly anyone follows me due to my lameness in blogery. But anyway, I really just need to get this out.
First, I stayed up until 1am last night doing my English project, and then found out that my partner didn’t even come to school. Soooo, I didn’t need to stay up late, as I was also missing class due to a doctor’s appointment.
I am one of three captains on the varsity softball team. Two of us were on the senior trip to Chicago and missed the first two days of the season. During this time, a Saturday practice was scheduled, bags were handed out, equipment was distributed, and practice time for this week had changed. Did anyone tell me ANY of that until today? Nope. And because of band, I cannot make the Saturday practice. Also, today was my first practice of the season. I have been on the bench for two years, and have always sat on the bench for every other sport I have played, so I am not naturally gifted. I have an immense amount of stuff to work on, even some of the sophomores are better than I am. And for some reason, I thought I would be the second baseman… but there are some other more talented girls in line for that, and the fact that our coach pulled me out of infield practice and made me go catch for the freshman pitcher and he put another girl at second really freaked me the heck out. I just want to be good at something besides trying hard.
On another note, my doctor called me fat today. I weigh 3 pounds lighter than I did the last time I was there, but he told me that I should try to lose “5 or 6 pounds” and to “eat more fruits and veggies and maybe skip some of the cookies.” And apparently, I am .4 above what “normal” is for body mass index… are you fucking kidding me?? I KNOW THAT I AM CHUBBY! I KNOW I’M THE LARGEST OF MY FRIENDS. I DON’T NEED YOU TO TELL ME THAT IT’S NOT HEALTHY…. my mom just told me “welcome to adulthood.” No. I already have a terrible self-esteem, why did this have to happen today? On top of all the schoolwork I have to make up for missing two days and the softball I have missed and will miss.
My coach was an ass today about me missing practice for two days. I can’t devote every minute to EVERYTHING. I do like twenty extracurricular things. I want to die. I really think that might be the best thing on some days, because overall, my life has not really been that exciting. I thought high school was supposed to be fun? Why did I choose to live this way?
If you read this, thanks for listening to my self pity party. I hope you had a better day than I did.
Why is this funny?
Why do people think it’s funny to “hack” someone’s facebook and write something like “i am gay.” or “i like women” or vulgar versions of that??? who the hell is laughing?
“When a hamster has a stroke, sometimes there is some head tilt and other times the hamster may start running in circles. Strokes often happen during the night so the first sign is when the following morning the hamster is unbalanced and typically the head tilts to one side. Usually strokes happen due to old age. Another reason why a hamster suffers a stroke could be from excessive heat. It’s important that the hamster’s cage is in a room at a temperature between 65°F / 18°C and 80°F / 26°C. Hamsters who have suffered a stroke may live quite a while longer and lead fairly normal lives, although some head tilt may remain. Head tilt may also take place when the hamster has an internal ear infection, sometimes secondary to a respiratory infection. The hamster often tilts its head to one side and loses its balance. The hamster may also circle when it tries to walk. Bacteria are the usual cause and treatment is with antibiotics prescribed by a vet. Another cause why a hamster may run in circles is due to a brain tumour. Another symptom of a stroke is when a hamster acts normally and then all of a sudden enters in a sort of a ‘trance’ where it stops staring almost as if it is hypnotised. The hamster may need help with feeding and drinking. Giving your hamster an easy and healthy life will help it live its life as normal as possible. Patience is an important factor.”
my hamster had a stroke… ugh. i feel like i am somehow responsible for this.
I am not a “hot” girl. I will probably never turn you on, or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way I look. But I can make you laugh and make you feel wanted, and sometimes I can be really fucking cute. I really wish that could be enough, just once.
story of my life.
(Source: misplacedtrustandpixiedust, via wordswithoutpictures)
